Two more days until school starts. This year will be the first time in nine years that both boys will be in school full days. I am going to miss them terribly. Especially the little one. I suppose I am used to the bigger one being gone from me for 6.5 hours at a time. But our little one is a different story. I have had six years of time alone with him while our older boy was in school. The little one went from being hell on earth to the sweetest, most fun pal a mom could have around. Sure, he still gives me problems once in a while, but mostly I have learned to laugh it off. (The meds don't hurt either!) Unfortunately, he has inherited both his father's and my stubbornness. But that's a blog for a different day....
In addition to missing having my little buddy around, I am sad that this phase of my life is over. I will never get this back. This is just another example of time going by faster and faster, realizing they're not that little anymore, I'm not that young anymore, all the things that are very unsettling to me. Where did the time go? When our boys were just newborns, all "experienced" parents said to us, "Don't blink, they'll be 18 before you know it." Even then, it was an idea that made me cry. Well, TMS and I are halfway to having an 18 year old, and I still feel like we are new parents. I still feel like we are in our late 20's. I suppose at some age our children will pass us in terms of their actual age vs. the age TMS and I think we are.
Then there's the other part of me....the selfish part of me. The part that CAN"T WAIT UNTIL THEY'RE GONE!! I'm so excited that I will have TIME again! Time to work, to exercise, to clean , to organize. This is very exciting to me and I've been planning my days for about a week now. Sure, I'm feeling slightly guilty for the sheer joy I'm feeling inside but I'm sure that will go away -- as soon as summer break comes around and they're, once again, home with me all day.
5 comments:
It is strange to think of the miniature swede not being home with you for most of the day.
You should be extremely proud of the job you have done with our little boys.
I love them and you, very much!
Now it's only "one more day"!
They are now in school. How do you feel?
Pretty good! A little sad at how long they've been gone, but I'm very busy with work today. I'm mostly relieved that I can work guilt-free.
How sad. I, too, cringe at the thought that my little girl has to go to school in two more years. It actually pains me.
I worked full time the first year of her life and then had the opportunity to go part time. Imagining her going to school and not having her home when I am.... well, I don't want to even think about it.
Time goes by TOO fast. The next thing you know, I will be in a rest home, blogging about my room mate.
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